SHUT UP

I was on 9gag on the other day and saw a post saying that whenever this guy is having a conversation in his head (which irritates him a lot), he would start to converse with himself out loud. I'm one of those guys too. Whenever I'm having a monologue, I kinda wanna punch myself in the face. I guess intelligent people think too much and thus the main cause of depression. I'm trashed for the present moment. It's like you aren't yourself anymore and you couldn't grab hold of any of the aspects in your life.

I'm frustrated, sad, depressed, moody and so on. I don't really voice out the problems I'm facing with others because that'd just make me look like a jerk, a coward, a helpless piece of shit. I'm a guy, looked tough but am being controlled by a soft-mushy thing inside. Sentimental? Maybe it's the word I'm looking for.

I've flunked my papers because, I don't know, lack of focus? People would try to compare their marks with me and so be it. What I'm feeling right now is that the whole world of mine is going down. Why? I asked myself for a gazillion times and there are still no answers to my questions. I'm writing this post in order to get this fucked-up mood off my chest. FUCK!

I've tried a lot of things to ease my MOOD, nothing works. But one thing I managed to get is that OVERTHINKING really do hurt you, mentally. You're being tortured by your own mind. The 'fight or flight' mechanism is turned on but you can't run away from your mind. I've got no one to talk to, no trustworthy ones.

I'm gonna go by now, by go, I mean shower.
Goodbye for a while.

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Priorities

Left tom Right: Wei Yen, Shaun Ken, Nicholas Wong, Vincent Tan, Me, Jake Lai

Oh great, now the gloomy days of mine have past.

I'm really grateful to those who were supporting me back then even though they have their own problems themselves (especially my business partners). I used to get jealous/envy towards other people who'd get a better result than me in whatever aspect of life. However, since the day I own a business of my own, people would tell me that I have changed like A LOT. More mature, more considerate, less emotional and yada yada yada. I would like to admit what they've said because the changes I've made since then have gotten me to be more mature, more adaptive towards to adult world. A lot would say that "Go enjoy your college life", "You're still a kid", "Acting so mature, for what?" and so on. I don't blame these people because back then I was an asshole too.

You might be wondering why I would talk bullshit in the paragraph before, but wait, I'll link it later. If you've been reading my previous blog post, you will be knowing I'm actually seeking balance. "Which aspects in life?" I bet you'd ask. It's actually between my studies and my career. I'm a student, a really good one. And I'll not be giving up my career just yet. I'm kinda a perfectionist I guess. I wanted all the aspects in my life to be perfect but sometimes it might just be too difficult.

So, what I did is that I sought advice from the people who've been through what I'm going through. And from their advice, I'm come to know that the best way to not compromise both my studies and career is to not participate in activities that aren't really beneficial to me. It's nothing wrong for wanting the best for myself, ain't it?

Seeking balance, and still making progress.

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Odyssey Night 2016/2017

Prom candidates, the Prom King and Prom Queen of the night.

It has been a year since I participated in the previous Odyssey Night (2015/2016) of TARUC.

Last year's today: Ticketing Department
This year: Sponsorship Department

I did learn a lot on how to approach a sponsor and how to deal with them. I really do want to personally thank Wedding Foundry for providing us an opportunity to grow with them. The luckiest part is that one of the founders of Wedding Foundry is actually from Chung Ling too (Shaw Jhee). Friendly, nice, funny, it's nice to have them as our main sponsor.

Left to Right: Mike (Founder), Wei Fong & Shaw Jhee (Founders), Ben, Jolin, Des, Vincent, Dan

To be honest, I'm quite disappointed about the event I've attended last night. I mean it's not that it's shitty or something, but I just don't feel right.

It's empty, inside, externally and internally.

Criticism.
Pointing Fingers.
Immature.

It's kinda complicated.

Of course, I'm just too focused on the negative sides here.

I was on duty during the night and here are a few pictures I managed to take (Nikon D5200) during the event:

Credits to the PA and IT department, the event wouldn't be success without their presence.

Panorama sweep of that night's event.

Marcus, a primary school friend of mine. 

Backstage moment with the prom and talent department/coordinator.

With Sonyia, again :)

Talent King of Odyssey Night 2016/2017. Nice song performed during the night. Kudos :))

Student Leaders of Group 22, Captain America.

Kudos to the emcee of the night, Owen Soh. :D

Judges' of the night. 

A talented singer, with Bernard being the keyboard-ist.

Audience of the night.

The PROM KING of TARUC Odyssey Night 2016/2017 (Right side of the picture)

PROM QUEEN!!! Wait, I'm...

...the PROM QUEEN!!! FO BITCHES, HAHAHAHA.

That's all for this year's Odyssey Night. :D
#votefordan
#imfabulous
#hahahabitches

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Seeking Balance.

"How's your day, __________?"

The same question that I'll be asking anyone, no matter it's a stranger, an acquaintance, a friend, a family member and so on. There's magic in this question as it kinda helped me to initiate a lot of conversations with other people. I've made a lot of friends in the past few months and I thought I would feel happier than before. Wait, don't get me wrong. I'm happy of the friends I've made. More social activities, more meals, more laughter but less sleep.

But soon I came to realize that I didn't really ask myself this question for a long time. "How's your day, Dan Way?". It's a really simple question but when it comes to you yourself, it isn't. I was/am really frustrated for the past week, there are a lot of strings to be hold and I only have two hands. Sometimes it's possible for you to lose control on the things that really do matter to you. I've got my dream career right now and also my responsibilities as a student.

I don't know if I said to anyone before (like publicly), I'm actually that typical Chinese kid who'd want everything to be perfect (for my grades). I'd say that I don't know if I've flunked my midterm test, though it's only for a 20%. This kinda irritates me.

Failed deal.
Lost opportunity.
No motivation.
Uncertainties.
Fear.
Social status?

I'm afraid of myself being the kid who'd seek for short term gains rather than the long term ones. I've got some of my secondary school friends who've participated in the field I'm in right now; currencies, stocks, commodities trading. A lot of people would say that it'll be very risky. I wouldn't say that it's not risky because I do believe that every action you take involves risk. From walking to jogging to driving a car and taking a plane. To be frank, some of them actually got their account burst which is mainly because of the lack of education and greed...

I've totally forgotten that the focus is on me, so, back to topic yo.

Recently, I think I've been expecting a lot from myself. I wanted to excel in my studies as well as in my career. But am I capable of doing that? I have doubts in myself. I've been talking to one of my business partners about the problems I'm suffering right now. His advice for me is that I should take the day off and relax. I did it and it seems to be working effectively (well, not really effective to be honest). Then I came out with my own way in coping with the stress I've had, to focus back on things one by one. That did work well but only for one thing, procrastination, duh. Hate that so much.

My mood is in a positive recovery now, I think I've grown a little by now on how to deal with stress and how can you grab hold of the strings that are starting to slip out of your fist. Going to strive for my studies later tonight (NOT AN EMPTY PROMISE to myself).

Anyhow, I would like to share my life/career journey that kept me happy for the past few months, (except for the previous week <.<):

PRIME presentation time to people who'd like make the most out of their life.

Odyssey Night's sponsor, Wedding Foundry :)

Oh yeah, last but not least, a group photo with the prom night female candidates. :)

:DDDDD

Peace.

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