Inspiration

"Where people see romance, I see inspiration." 

- Dan Way.


Not Today by Imagine Dragons

The best part of having an annoying yet geeky older brother is that he'll always recommend things which are initially not of my interest and then suddenly I'm an expert and the spokesman of that particular 'thing'. Few weeks ago, he started to talk about the movie, 'Me Before You'. To be frank, I'm not a really big fan of movies in the romance genre. It's kinda fake though. I didn't plan to watch it at first because I was so busy with my studies and career. Then, one day, while I was driving to college (about half an hour drive), I shuffled the songs in Apple Music and heard this song. The rhythm suits me and the song itself is associated with the element of melancholy. It has been years since I got so deep into a song.



It's nice, now and then. And a few days later, I couldn't resist myself and the persuasion from my brother, saying the movie's so dayum nice. I watched it in the middle of the night. The movie itself is very touching and it deserved the high ratings from the movie critics. Where's the inspirational part? Wait, I'll get there in a moment. Synopsis? (Spoiler ahead) The main actor who's suffering from a spinal cord injury fell in love with the main actress (both British) and although she tried many things to change the actor's mind to not commit suicide (not in a painful manner, through chemicals), she failed and the actor died anyway.

However, when the actor died, he left a letter for her. Saying that she'd need to live the life she wanted and not living in others' dogma (I loved that part). And when it comes to reality, I figured out that maybe I could be like her. All these years I've been living for others and not until today I realized the aforementioned issue. I've been a very obedient, hardworking, academically-satisfied puppet. I think I should pursue my own dreams and maybe must give it an all-out. I'm a very very lazy person but when it comes to the topics I love, oh man, you will never find me being ME.



It has been almost 5 years since Steve Jobs' death and you might be wondering why I would bring up this topic out of the blue. Well, because recently I've been reading a book regarding Apple and also, you know, HIM. I'm not a huge fan of Apple products but I am a huge fan of Steve Jobs. His spirit, passion and enthusiasm were far too enormous than the ordinary people. Most people would say that they know Steve Jobs but what they know is only his most famous quote: "Stay Hungry, Stay Foolish" and didn't know the meaning behind it. I was only able to decrypt the message from the quote after reading the book, "Inside Steve's Brain" by Leander Kahney for a week. And I do hope that you have the time and the patience to read it too.

Many people would say that they know this and that and when being questioned about their sources, they would often say: Others said that or maybe I read it from... I don't remember. People don't think, they imitate and that's why Henry Ford once said: "Thinking is the most difficult part in life, that's why most people don't do it." I'm kind of a 'fact guy' which I don't really rely on other people's information not unless they're trustworthy and the information provided by them work. I love learning new stuff, but to study in order to be tested, it's not really in my favour...

Well, that's all for today I guess. Hope you're able to make it to the end. And one more thing, Happy Independence Day to all Malaysians. :)

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Betterment

Currently using the college library's computer to type this passage.

I was told that I was being quite pensive for quite a while right now. Basically, yes. I am.

I've been reading a lot these days and it is very enjoyable (the reading session, alone, no disturbance...) Many thoughts have come to my mind and for me it makes me wiser. I speak less and think more. I've meeting up with a few friends yesterday, one was my primary school friend, Bridgette. We've known each other for like 10 years now (not to mention the huge gap in between). I was and am really fortunate to have a friend like Bridgette.

Yesterday we met up at Coffee Bean, E-Gate Branch and she brought me a Bible (I requested earlier, about 3 months back). I'm not really really into the religion thing, however, I'm really grateful to Bridgette for putting my request in mind. Most people would probably turn a blind eye on this kind of matter, but she didn't. The Bible, there's an ocean of information and knowledge in it. What I'm interested in is the history being told in the bible. Old Testament they say?



It has been gloomy and sometime raining in the past few days. I love rainy days the most, windy ones come next. I started re-vlogging again, of course, thanks to Bridgette once again. However, I'm changing the course of my vlogging thing. We've been talking about the same interest we have and I've found out that we actually have many interests in common. Well, except she's a woman and I'm a man. Blah blah blah...

I started reading the Bible yesterday night until 3AM and it's quite interesting. Except for the part that there are too many generations. Adam and Eve, Shem, Ham, Japeth, Noah and so on. I'm really into these things, history, they would say. Really love it.



While I was reading the Bible yesterday, I stumbled upon a Facebook post from one of my primary school friends, Jesslin Chin. She moved to Kuala Lumpur (KL) when we're in Form 2. One of her cousins died in an accident involving a crane free-falling from a construction site and hit the car she was driving, causing a fatal accident. My condolences to you and your family, Jess.


What I'm trying to imply here is that things are not going to be as what you expect. People wouldn't know what they're going to go through tomorrow. Tomorrow comes first or death? No one knows. Why do the things you dislike and waste the time you shouldn't be? Take risks, strive for what you want. Strive for what your heart wants. because someday you'll be thanking yourself for making the decision to take risks. Instead of saying "I should've done that." You should be standing confidently and make the statement of  "I'm glad that I took that step/decision."

Be strong Jess. We'll always be here. :)

And once again, Thanks Bridgette. :D

For anyone who's having a bad day.

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Humane

Who am I? Who are you? Who the heck are we?
I'm writing this post in a serious tone. The post is to address the things which I deemed to say it out loud since the day SHE left.

If you'd think that this is a love story, sorry, I'm gonna disappoint you because it ain't one. I've been single ever since the day I was born. There are 2 stories here I would really like to bring up:

First and foremost,

The College Canteen
It was a Thursday evening (last week) and I was preparing for my Basic Taxation test. I've been studying with my class rep. in the college library and after that we planned to go for some snacks to fill up our empty stomach. I ordered a toast and the so called 'female boss' there took my order. She seemed to be a little upset when she was taking my order and I didn't care much. The toast was more important back then. She demanded her female Indonesian worker to make me my toast. The worker didn't hear what she said and guess what? Before that, she was upset, the next minute, she got furious. Started scolding and condemning her, the Indonesian for not being able to hear what she said because the fan was too loud. As you guys know, I do work for my father in his food court, as a cashier, a waiter and so on. (Yes, I am a multi-task-er) Do you know how hot and stuffy it is to work inside the so-called kitchen? Because the worker is unable to listen to what she said, she once again, demanded her worker to not switch on the fan ANYMORE. I was there like, WHAT THE FUCK?! It's not her fault for not being able to hear what you said to her. The environment itself was so damn noisy and you accused her for not being attentive? This is a brand new world for me.

Secondly,

Arabica Estate
It was 2 days ago after my group's seminar and I was there with my business partner, Nicholas. We went for supper as the both of us were yet to get dinner. I was sitting facing a family of 5 or 6. This family didn't catch my mind until I saw a lady, about 23-25 years old sitting at the table next to the family. It turned out that she's a maid (If I'm not mistaken). I'm tired of seeing this kind of shit because... I'll talk about that later. So, I don't know why they'd play this type of segregation thing. As for me, I think that everyone is EQUAL. I hate it when people say shit about extreme feminism, man-should-be-in-power, LGBTQ and other bullshit stuffs. I'm really grateful and do admire those who fought for equal human rights (Martin Luther King, Mandela, Abraham Lincoln, Sun Yat Sen and so on). Back to the aforementioned story, I was so furious inside because the whole FUCKING BUNCH OF FAMILY are there playing POKEMON FUCKING GO. I don't meant to insult them but they're, they're just assholes. The maid was told by the parents to finish the unfinished foods of their children while they were there catching PIKACHUS. WHAT THE HECK?! That's not a proper way the teach your kids. Sorry to tell, but you parents just failed at parenting. FUCK YOU. If you think your money is all so almighty, you deserve a place in hell.

It's time for me to get this thing off my chest. Why am I so stressed out when I encounter these kind of circumstances? It was because of HER. I felt guilty and so sorry for HER when she left. I was 11 when she left. Why am I sorry? Because I was such an asshole back then. Whenever I wanted a cup of water, I demanded her to get it for me. Although the water dispenser's just 4 meters away. She was there fetching me water and I was there watching dramas as a kid. I hated myself and how I was brought up. I was lucky enough to have an older brother who's mature enough to criticize me for my behavior. I was ASHAMED of myself and that's when I started seeking equality and respect to the elder ones who deserve it.

She, Harlika Lilik Fitriani, an Indonesian childhood tutor of mine is the best tutor I've ever had. Thank you and SORRY. D:

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Youtube and Friends

Hey ladies and gentlemen, if you've been with me for the past few months, you'll be noticing that I've been idle from Youtube for quite a while right now. The main factors are probably because of my career and my studies. I wanted to apologize for not being able to deliver weekly Youtube videos for the current time period. I'm not a full-time one and promising about delivering weekly videos makes my hobby into a commitment and that isn't fun, at least for me. I've enrolled in the jumpcut academy like last night (to be frank, this morning about 3AM, before going to bed) and I felt alive again.

I've been a little moody for the past few weeks and kinda felt disgusted of myself. I like (love) social interactions but there's some time which you'd need to spend time alone, reflecting about life and so on. I talked to myself quite 'violently' I would say and that has been excruciating, I mean mentally. I've been subscribing to a lot of positive pages and at one time I saw this quote

"You'll be speaking to yourself most of the time than to other people. Treat yourself as well as you'd treat other people."

We've all been through that stage where we'll always take on the blame and forgiving others for the mistakes which incurred during your work, activities and so on. I felt regretful after the night I reflected on myself. What have I done which led me to a the path which is so painful and torturing? (mentally) And I figured out, thanks to the quote :)

I've been blaming myself all the while for not being able to be the perfect one. Earlier this year, I've been talking to one of my college seniors and a best friend of mine, Yaarshivine Jayabalan. She told me about the things she have been through and I might too. And yes, she's right. (Of course I'm not going to type out the content we've been speaking about.) And her advice? CALM THE FUCK DOWN. Ain't nobody got time to bother you. You can't be perfect. I was kinda shocked at first and found out that she's ludicrous. As time passes by, I agreed on her opinion. It's good to have a friend who wants nothing but care for you. I'll miss you Yaarsh, thank you for all the jokes (dirty ones, racist ones...). Keep in touch.

Btw, I'm looking for people who're really into making videos to come join me as a team. FB me if you're interested.

Best regards.

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