Hey ladies and gentlemen, if you've been with me for the past few months, you'll be noticing that I've been idle from Youtube for quite a while right now. The main factors are probably because of my career and my studies. I wanted to apologize for not being able to deliver weekly Youtube videos for the current time period. I'm not a full-time one and promising about delivering weekly videos makes my hobby into a commitment and that isn't fun, at least for me. I've enrolled in the jumpcut academy like last night (to be frank, this morning about 3AM, before going to bed) and I felt alive again.
I've been a little moody for the past few weeks and kinda felt disgusted of myself. I like (love) social interactions but there's some time which you'd need to spend time alone, reflecting about life and so on. I talked to myself quite 'violently' I would say and that has been excruciating, I mean mentally. I've been subscribing to a lot of positive pages and at one time I saw this quote
"You'll be speaking to yourself most of the time than to other people. Treat yourself as well as you'd treat other people."
We've all been through that stage where we'll always take on the blame and forgiving others for the mistakes which incurred during your work, activities and so on. I felt regretful after the night I reflected on myself. What have I done which led me to a the path which is so painful and torturing? (mentally) And I figured out, thanks to the quote :)
I've been blaming myself all the while for not being able to be the perfect one. Earlier this year, I've been talking to one of my college seniors and a best friend of mine, Yaarshivine Jayabalan. She told me about the things she have been through and I might too. And yes, she's right. (Of course I'm not going to type out the content we've been speaking about.) And her advice? CALM THE FUCK DOWN. Ain't nobody got time to bother you. You can't be perfect. I was kinda shocked at first and found out that she's ludicrous. As time passes by, I agreed on her opinion. It's good to have a friend who wants nothing but care for you. I'll miss you Yaarsh, thank you for all the jokes (dirty ones, racist ones...). Keep in touch.
Btw, I'm looking for people who're really into making videos to come join me as a team. FB me if you're interested.
Best regards.
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