#throwback: Orientation Week

You guys are AWESOME :D

27th of May 2016 marked the end of the 2016/2017 orientation week of my college, Tunku Abdul Rahman University College (TARUC). Before getting involved in the orientation week as a Student Leader (SL), I was actually part of the Student Representative Council (SRC). Before this and thanks to the SRC, I was able to participate/organize many events and activities which really do help me to grow a lot. And now, let the storyteller tell his story regarding the orientation week.

I quit the SRC because I'd like to try something new and most importantly, to meet new friends. It was all very positive and things were going very smoothly at first. The first SL meeting, The first day of the SL training camp, the preparation process, drawing the groups' flags and so on. I was appointed to the EBE school, the school that I was also appointed when I was a freshman. Things get complicated when a bunch of negative people came into power and started to lead the whole team to nowhere. Well, I have negative thoughts too, but I wouldn't let them grow and destroy me. :)

Don't get me wrong, there are more enjoyable moments than the not-so-fun ones. The most fun part of the orientation week is of course being with the freshmen. Secondly comes the student leader leadership camp. We've had a lot of fun, no doubts unto each other, no nothing but just FUN.

Met up with my group's freshmen and guess what? They're the most awesome, sporting, cool MF freshmen I've ever had. I wouldn't want to talk much about them because they can't be describe with just a few lines of words. *Fantastic Baby* (Yea, it's just because of my laziness)

I was the cool guy before and everyone will look at me and say, "See, it's the bitchy cold-face dude". I would like to apologize for my natural-intimidating face, alright? I was so because of my arrogance and I think I might be emphasizing too much on my personal 'dignity'? I'm truly sorry for the bitchy face before my metamorphosis.

The 'guess-the-word' game

Left: BK Tan Nice makeup and a great leader. :D

Left: Jun Qin a.k.a FAKOSA ---> Great Dancer

Right: ShaRmin? or Shamin? I thought he was a Muslim. :P

Claire, the most awesome shittiest girl I've met.

Tired SRC Committees. Thanks to them, I've had a great week. ;)

Preparation of flags.

In conclusion, I'm a changed man :)
Before that, I would like

Right: Nelson Koay (3.99 SIAW Kia)

My DEAREST Freshmen :D

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Searching inside out

This is the most recent picture I snapped in maybe for the past few months?

I've been reading quite a lot in the past few months and that's probably one of the main reasons that I didn't update my blog for quite a long time.

I don't know why but the levels of oxytocin in me is high as for today. Guys do experience mood swings too? No idea. As from what I said in the last post, due to the fear of uncertainties, I stopped being......ME.

I reviewed some of my previous blog posts and I found out that my grammar and vocabulary during that time was kinda shitty. However, that's not the main point. The main issue I'd like to highlight here is that I'm that type of person who'd be the one making friends instead of waiting for them to come to me.

I had this lost feeling once and that happened when I was looking for the subject that I'd study for. I've thought about being a lawyer, a pilot, I don't know. Quite a lot of occupations I guess. But after having a conversation with my parents, they reminded me about my job, my passion, my core thinking and so on.

I'd like to be rich, everyone has the chance of being rich. So, I stopped saying I WOULD, instead, I started saying I MUST since the day I discovered I've got nothing else to lose. To be frank, I'm from a low-to-middle income family, my parents worked really hard for themselves and us. Before signing up for college, my parents always emphasize to me to focus on my studies. After graduation, they'd give me the freedom to do what I wanted to do. I wanted to be an entrepreneur, I wanted to be like Mark Zuckerberg, Steve Jobs, Bill Gates. Dropping college and stuffs.

But soon I realized that I'm living in Malaysia, an Asian country, which means my situation might not be the same as the 3 people aforementioned. Getting a college degree or maybe a PhD is a MUST in Malaysia in order for me to march forward. Asia is not the land of fantasy or whatsoever. It's harsh and yet I can still see Americans complaining a lot. Maybe because of the media's hard work and exacerbated of the booming era of information technology.

Just a few weeks ago, I watched Kung Fu Panda 3. Funny but meaningful. WHO AM I? It's quite a simple question but when it comes to us, it's complicated. I'm a student? A kid? A sucker? A winner? A loser? An employee? What do I really want? The question is like a hydrogen bomb. A single action which triggers the chain reaction that causes more and more questions to arise.

So, what do I really want, as for now?
I've actually ordered what I wanted years ago but my parents wouldn't let me do it before I graduated from high school, a DSLR for filming and making videos. I just love recording videos, sharing what the world looks like from my perspective. Dull? Interesting? Both? I've bought many things in my life hesitantly? And I end up regretting for every moment of my life. Except for one particular subject. A camera. I don't spend much but when it really comes to what I love, I would get them for whatever reasons. As the song lyrics go:

You're only young once, my love, one, this is your chance
Take risks, cause life moves so fast
You're only young once, my love, one, this is your chance

This is all for today. Thank you for your time reading this article, if you were. Thank you. :D

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Embarking A New Life Journey

It has been almost 6 months since I continue to blog. I did think of giving up the blogging part of my life and guess what? No. I love writing about stuffs and giving it all up is just absurd.

I've been planning to operate a business of my own, with a partner lately but it ended up my partner didn't want it. Every night I couldn't sleep because of the thoughts inside my mind. Then one day I realize what if college is the time where I should go make friends, since I didn't have one, or do I?

I'm 19 this year (currently in my sophomore year), growing up, getting mature, and this thought/quote from Steve Jobs just came across my mind:

"If today were the last day of my life, would I want to do what I am about to do today?" And whenever the answer has been "no" for too many days in a row, I know I need to change something. "

I've been procrastinating for my whole life, worried about this and that, dragging myself back from the path of success. There are some factors that made me so. I'm so tired already. Even suicidal thoughts have came to me in the past few months. I scarcely share my thoughts with other people.

However, from this moment onwards, I'll be going public. I'll be unleashing the beast inside of me, making the life I've always wanted. I know, I know, I've been making a lot of empty promises back then, but this time, it's different. Sometimes you'll just need some setbacks in life to awaken the innner you, who you are and what you're worth for. 6 months, 4 books, 2 choices, 1 decision right now.

You could join me, be part of the team, it may be small at first but I'd guarantee you that you'll not regret. :)

I'll be making a video about this later in the future to talk about my recent self.

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