It's funny how sometimes emotions can be so extreme. In one moment you could be happy AF. The other second you might want to wait for a death sentence. Well, I'm mentally positive but sometimes I might be a little, well, you know, down. I don't know why I'm feeling quite frustrated today, maybe it's because of yesterday's insomnia, thanks to Starbucks.
I get a little hyped up when I'm typing this post. I don't know why but I've tried something similar before. Back then before I changed my negative mindset to a positive one, I actually did vlog (using my Samsung A7) about what haunts me at night and keep me away from my bed. It was actually my past, during the glorious days of mine back in secondary school. I was such an arrogant, MF bitch (at least that's what I told everyone about the PAST me).
I got miserable today and I think I'll repeat what I did. I didn't actually want to vlog but to blog this time (currently in my hostel with my housemates). Actually, I got miserable because I thought that my housemates were really nice people, yes they still are very awesome people, except for my new housemate, a female one. I do know some stories regarding her past from my male housemates (they were friends during secondary school). I didn't care much about her before she moved in to stay with us. It was nice meeting her though, because I thought she wouldn't be that hardcore.
Well, guess what, I was wrong. I didn't want to talk bad about her right here because I'm a believer of the Law of Attraction. If you keep on thinking about negative things in life, you'll receive negative shit and vice versa. I'm writing this post because I'd like to free myself from being tortured/tormented by my own thoughts.
Here's how it went:
SRC meeting was yesterday and I was having a casual conversation with my female housemate. She's a SRC member too, apparently. She's kinda frail or I would say, 'fragile' because she's always seeking for companion or maybe to not leave her comfort zone, I guess? I somehow talked to her regarding her situation and here's a what I told her:
"You shouldn't always be in your comfort zone, sometimes you'll need to step out of that zone and control your life yourself. If you'd continue to be like what you are right now, you're not going to achieve your dreams and whatsoever."
You see, it's really just a general statement and that's how I always motivate others to reach out for their dreams. I don't know if I got my tones or pitch wrong, but when I returned to my hostel and repeated the same words to my other housemate, they didn't seem to have any problems. Girls are too sensitive? I don't really know about girls. She wrote a status on her Wechat (I was prohibited from reading her status). I knew this shit from my roommate/housemate. The status' about:
"You and I, we just met each other like a month ago and you acted like you know me real well. You don't know any of my stories and so STFU and mind your own business. You're not a psychologist or whatever shit"
To be frank, I exaggerated a little. (Call me a bitch would you?)
It's not a big deal if someone's not pleased at me. I don't really care actually. This case is different because we're all living under the same roof and I don't want any awkward situations when we meet each other every day.
It was a mental torment and so I decided to not care about what she thinks. I've scrolled through Facebook to look for positive quotes and I think the quote that suits the best for my current situation is that
"You can't just please anyone in the world. No matter how perfect you are, there are still people hating you, it's just that they don't confront you directly."
WHAT A RELIEF, thank you the power of positivity.
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